I'm still being held hostage in Bingelandia. I binged again today, on only healthy foods, but it was still waaaaay over my calorie limit. And now I have a party I have to go to on Friday as well, if I don't show up and have a drink or two (10), someone special to me will be pissed off.
I don't think I'm going to weigh in this Monday, if this continues. Way too depressing to see that I've gained.
-Chubby-
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Tubby is...okay?!
I've been doing about 1200 a day this week. Higher than I'd normally shoot for, but still within a range I'm comfortable with. Best part of all: no binging.
Last night was a close call. Work...well, enough said. Work can be stressful, I don't care who you are or how much you like your job. I tend to get in these moods where anything is taken as criticism. I start the most childish, petty fights, and convince myself that I'm a victim. Being a victim, I, of course, must binge. Last night's weapon of choice? Starbucks. Now, I know many would not consider Starbucks to be a binge, I guess it's just a mindset thing, empty calories and all. The guilt is always enough to set me off on a real binge.
However, I resisted. Yes, poor wounded little martyr me resisted. Stayed on track, and somehow even managed to take a big girl pill and stop feeling sorry for myself. Sadly, this took a good portion of the night, but still. Last night was sort of an accomplishment (if only a small one) for me. It probably didn't hurt that I got a few lovely messages from dear Chubby, which cheered me up to no end. You all should be so lucky to have a friend like her.
Now, if only my co-workers and I were still on speaking terms...
-Tubby-
Last night was a close call. Work...well, enough said. Work can be stressful, I don't care who you are or how much you like your job. I tend to get in these moods where anything is taken as criticism. I start the most childish, petty fights, and convince myself that I'm a victim. Being a victim, I, of course, must binge. Last night's weapon of choice? Starbucks. Now, I know many would not consider Starbucks to be a binge, I guess it's just a mindset thing, empty calories and all. The guilt is always enough to set me off on a real binge.
However, I resisted. Yes, poor wounded little martyr me resisted. Stayed on track, and somehow even managed to take a big girl pill and stop feeling sorry for myself. Sadly, this took a good portion of the night, but still. Last night was sort of an accomplishment (if only a small one) for me. It probably didn't hurt that I got a few lovely messages from dear Chubby, which cheered me up to no end. You all should be so lucky to have a friend like her.
Now, if only my co-workers and I were still on speaking terms...
-Tubby-
New goal
In addition to my weight loss goal, I have another one: To not be so anal retentive about the calories I eat. Right now, I have this thing when I need to eat an even amount each day (like 1200), and have an even average each week. This week's goal is to eat an uneven number of calories each day. I can't go on being this neurotic.
-Chubby-
-Chubby-
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Bad,bad girl
I'm having some trouble besides my weight at the moment, and yesterday i comforted myself with binge foods. Then I got up this morning and ate the leftovers (WHY didn't I remember to throw it out?). So the day has started really bad for me (I'm European, so it's 12.30 pm here). One of the unwritten rules of dieting is that you never start over in the middle of the day. If you've binged, keep binging. Maybe I should try to break that rule today.
-Chubby-
-Chubby-
An Appropriate Moniker
So, I've gained some weight since last week. This does not seem possible, or even likely, for that matter. Not trying to make excuses, just stating facts. I will admit, I spent half of last week consuming 600 cals a day. Not smart. I love setting unattainable goals for myself, I guess.
I'm not sure how I managed to gain. I don't care. 600 is stupid, it's one (of many) of the things I'm trying to get away from. Starving, binging, purging, all those unhealthy habits. My goal for now is around 1000 a day. If I come in over, that's fine, and if I come in a bit under, well, that's fine too. Overall, I'd love to lose some of this extra weight, become more conscious of getting the most nutrition I can from my calories, and eventually stop being so pathological about food. I'm working on that. It's just a day-to-day thing.
I'll get there. And hopefully with a minimal amount of whining on the journey.
-Tubby-
I'm not sure how I managed to gain. I don't care. 600 is stupid, it's one (of many) of the things I'm trying to get away from. Starving, binging, purging, all those unhealthy habits. My goal for now is around 1000 a day. If I come in over, that's fine, and if I come in a bit under, well, that's fine too. Overall, I'd love to lose some of this extra weight, become more conscious of getting the most nutrition I can from my calories, and eventually stop being so pathological about food. I'm working on that. It's just a day-to-day thing.
I'll get there. And hopefully with a minimal amount of whining on the journey.
-Tubby-
Sunday, January 28, 2007
1st weigh-in
Chubby:
Height: 5.7 (170 cm)
164 lbs (74.3 kgs)
BMI: 25.71
I just have to brag a little, this means I've lost 14 lbs since new years.
My 1st goal weight: 153 lbs (70 kgs) by februrary 25.
Second goal weight: 143 lbs (65 kgs) by mars 25.
Third goal weight: 132 lbs (60 kgs) by
Ultimate goal weight: 121 lbs (55) kilos by july 30
Tubby:
Height: 5.7 (170 cm)
164 lbs (74.3 kgs)
BMI: 25.71
I just have to brag a little, this means I've lost 14 lbs since new years.
My 1st goal weight: 153 lbs (70 kgs) by februrary 25.
Second goal weight: 143 lbs (65 kgs) by mars 25.
Third goal weight: 132 lbs (60 kgs) by
Ultimate goal weight: 121 lbs (55) kilos by july 30
Tubby:
Height: 5.0 (152.4 cm)
Weight: 145 lbs (65.8 kgs)
BMI: 28.3
There is no adequate way to express a cringe via the internet. I'm retaining water (actually, I hope I'm retaining tons of water) and will be deciding my new set of goals based on next weigh-in results. Let's just say there's a bridesmaid's dress I need to squeeze into by March 31.
Also, congrats to Chubby on her loss! She's doing a great job!
Saturday, January 27, 2007
I expect a good weigh-in
Due to stress, I haven't eaten as much as usual this week, so my average calorie intake has been 900 (I'm totally neurotic, and want even numbers every day/week). I expect a nice weigh-in, in spite of my binging last Sunday. I've lost some weight over the last few weeks, but maintained last week, so I'm expecting to have lost some by Monday.
We're planning to post before-pics on Monday, if Tubby can get hold of a proper camera. If not, I may have to force her to use her cell phone camera.
-Chubby-
We're planning to post before-pics on Monday, if Tubby can get hold of a proper camera. If not, I may have to force her to use her cell phone camera.
-Chubby-
Muscle/fat
I just wanted to say something about a myth so many dieters believe in: They think that if they don't lose weight fast enough, it's because they're gaining muscle.
That's bullshit. It takes a lot of food and hard exercise to gain even a pound of muscle. If you start dieting and exercising a lot, the muscles in the body can retiain some water, and that goes away after about a month. That's the reason why you can gain weight when you start exercising.
Think of bodybuilders: They eat huge amounts of food to build muscles. If you're dieting, you can gain a bit of muscles if you exercise a lot, but not much.
If you're dieting and lose weight slowly, it's not, I repeat not, because you're gaining loads of muscle weight.
-Chubby-
That's bullshit. It takes a lot of food and hard exercise to gain even a pound of muscle. If you start dieting and exercising a lot, the muscles in the body can retiain some water, and that goes away after about a month. That's the reason why you can gain weight when you start exercising.
Think of bodybuilders: They eat huge amounts of food to build muscles. If you're dieting, you can gain a bit of muscles if you exercise a lot, but not much.
If you're dieting and lose weight slowly, it's not, I repeat not, because you're gaining loads of muscle weight.
-Chubby-
I'm doing the same plan as Tubby, a certain amount of calories a week, and then eating more or less some days. I'm doing 7000 this weeks, although I might do a bit more some weeks. I'm taller and heavier than Tubby, so I can eat a bit more and still lose weight. I eat 200 calorie meas every three hours or so to keep me full, but not too full.
My problem is "hungry days". I have days, especially in the weekends when I'm bored, where I'm constantly hungry. Hopefully, allowing myself more calories one or two days a week will help me with that.
More about our plan:
- Loads of fibre
- Loads of protein
- Not too much fat
- Not too many carbs
- No alcohol (except on special occasions)
- Exercise.
About the exercise- I don't have access to a gym now, but I burn about 300 calories waking to work and back everyday. I don't think I can fit more exercise into my schedule at the moment, I'm working way too much.
We both use the Fitday program to get an overview of our calorie intake. Check it out, it's on the link list, and it's free!
-Chubby-
My problem is "hungry days". I have days, especially in the weekends when I'm bored, where I'm constantly hungry. Hopefully, allowing myself more calories one or two days a week will help me with that.
More about our plan:
- Loads of fibre
- Loads of protein
- Not too much fat
- Not too many carbs
- No alcohol (except on special occasions)
- Exercise.
About the exercise- I don't have access to a gym now, but I burn about 300 calories waking to work and back everyday. I don't think I can fit more exercise into my schedule at the moment, I'm working way too much.
We both use the Fitday program to get an overview of our calorie intake. Check it out, it's on the link list, and it's free!
-Chubby-
Hoarding is fun!
Well, the latest in my never-ending quest for the land of thin (aka my latest anti-binge/purge technique) is flexibility. 7000 calories a week, with a minimum of 800 to be used a day and the other 1400 to use just whenever I want.
Sounds great, right? This means that, in theory, I could have a 2200 calorie day if I so chose. And that's every week. It wouldn't even be cheating.
Problem? Well, the fact that I'm completely neurotic doesn't help. I'm scared to dip into the calories, thinking something along the lines of, "Well, what if I need them later?" Guess what, newsflash, Tubs: you won't. I mean, really, when is one in a situation where they would actually need excess calories? When do you need a piece of cake? When do you need a slice (or 5) of pizza? The straight-up answer here is never.
The honest answer probably includes the word stress somewhere. However, part of what I'm trying to do here is work on my reasons for binging/purging/overeating in general. Stress does not equate to a need for food. The sooner I get this part down, the better. Furthermore, boredom is about as good as stress for an excuse. That's all they really are anyway, excuses.
Well, no more excuses. And no more hoarding my calories. This is ridiculous.
-Tubby-
Sounds great, right? This means that, in theory, I could have a 2200 calorie day if I so chose. And that's every week. It wouldn't even be cheating.
Problem? Well, the fact that I'm completely neurotic doesn't help. I'm scared to dip into the calories, thinking something along the lines of, "Well, what if I need them later?" Guess what, newsflash, Tubs: you won't. I mean, really, when is one in a situation where they would actually need excess calories? When do you need a piece of cake? When do you need a slice (or 5) of pizza? The straight-up answer here is never.
The honest answer probably includes the word stress somewhere. However, part of what I'm trying to do here is work on my reasons for binging/purging/overeating in general. Stress does not equate to a need for food. The sooner I get this part down, the better. Furthermore, boredom is about as good as stress for an excuse. That's all they really are anyway, excuses.
Well, no more excuses. And no more hoarding my calories. This is ridiculous.
-Tubby-
Friday, January 26, 2007
Weigh-Ins
We'll have our first weigh-in on our official weigh-in day, Monday. We've been trying hard to diet for a few weeks (well, we've been trying for years, but failed), and lost a bit of weight, but we're starting fresh with new numbers every Monday.
New Year's resolutions...
..are for suckers. The end of January is clearly where it's at. I mean, you don't see millions of people breaking January 26th resolutions, do you? Of course not.
In other words, our New Year's Resolutions were ultimately unsuccessful. Whose weren't? But we're trying again. Be warned, there may be some setbacks. Procrastination. Drama. Angst. Tears. Calories.
Welcome to our blog.
In other words, our New Year's Resolutions were ultimately unsuccessful. Whose weren't? But we're trying again. Be warned, there may be some setbacks. Procrastination. Drama. Angst. Tears. Calories.
Welcome to our blog.
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