Well, the latest in my never-ending quest for the land of thin (aka my latest anti-binge/purge technique) is flexibility. 7000 calories a week, with a minimum of 800 to be used a day and the other 1400 to use just whenever I want.
Sounds great, right? This means that, in theory, I could have a 2200 calorie day if I so chose. And that's every week. It wouldn't even be cheating.
Problem? Well, the fact that I'm completely neurotic doesn't help. I'm scared to dip into the calories, thinking something along the lines of, "Well, what if I need them later?" Guess what, newsflash, Tubs: you won't. I mean, really, when is one in a situation where they would actually need excess calories? When do you need a piece of cake? When do you need a slice (or 5) of pizza? The straight-up answer here is never.
The honest answer probably includes the word stress somewhere. However, part of what I'm trying to do here is work on my reasons for binging/purging/overeating in general. Stress does not equate to a need for food. The sooner I get this part down, the better. Furthermore, boredom is about as good as stress for an excuse. That's all they really are anyway, excuses.
Well, no more excuses. And no more hoarding my calories. This is ridiculous.
-Tubby-
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